I have been up since 3:00 AM and have just started my monthly flow. That information matters because it contextualises the state I am in: deeply introspective. As the external world is desperately demanding my submission to one thought process through mass coercion and division, I am called to shift my attention increasingly inward. After all, this is where I live!
In this internal space of being, I discovered the joy I feel in every fibre of my being in the word “unstoried”. Thank you for bringing that word to my awareness, dear friend, Karina Evangelista. How I experience that word in this moment is un-boxed. Free of the illusion of the box. Free of the illusion that the box is necessary, or even real. I am aware of how often I have given energy to the type of polarised thinking of that or not that. Feeling that I must choose from the confines of the box.
I no longer hold that as true (which is why I didn’t vote this year; just as well, literally nothing changed).
How our beliefs, values and attitudes keep us stagnated
Today, what I know to be true is that as a quantum being, expressing in the physical universe, I have access to the field of the totality of THE ALL. I am only as limited as my most limiting thoughts, as held in place by my beliefs, values and attitudes. Which, of course, despite how I might position them as solid, are not. They are malleable. They are meant to be in constant flux. They are meant to flow with breath as I discover more about my Self, my world, and the connections within it. The only thing that keeps them solidified is my mindset that “that’s just how things are”.
How much of “just how things are” is a mindset replicated time and again as a way to keep us from evolving beyond the limits of the mindsets (individual and collective) we have devoted our lives to sustaining…?
How much of “just how things are” is a mantra repeated to ourselves so that we don’t have to inhale the courage it takes to be authentic and exhale acting from that space of knowing: I am an ever-evolving being…?
I simply don’t know the answer to that. And, I’m inclined to suggest, based on my own experience, that it is a lot.
Us human beings have collectively decided a long time ago in our evolutionary journey on this planet to displace responsibility over our lives and our creations to some etheric someone else. Whether it’s our parents that we blame for our misfortunes, or our bosses, or our culture, or our institutions, or our paradigms…it’s always someone else.
So we wait for that hypothetical, fictionalised someone else to come save us from ourselves. And in the meantime, we simply go on replicating that which we already know. The queen and the ant hill must survive! All the while we tell ourselves we are well educated and well informed.
Have you noticed that the era of information is over?
Have you noticed that we have entered the era of censorship as dictated by big-money?
Have you noticed that we have entered the era of mis- and dis-information, post-truth, if you will?
“The truth” has never been so blatantly politicised. Yet it has always been just as polarised. War mentality, shields up. Myself included.
The convenience of ‘forgetting’: The infinite game is so much more fucking FUN!
I tried to convince myself, I forgot. Yet I know, in the depths of my being, godForces do no forget themselves. As my wonderful, brilliant friend, mentor and coach Sheila Winter Wallace pointed out in our most recent email exchange:
“We call it forgetting to let ourselves off the hook of being creator of what we define as mess. Truth is, like it or not, a godForce IS creator… and and we each get to define what mess is and what it is not. For a lot of us, owning the responsibility of having created [or co-created with others] a mess can be a hard thing to swallow; we only choose to celebrate what we would define as the ‘good’ stuff. In the quantum field, there is no mess. For me, there is no capacity to forget; there is only my willingness to remember. Permission, then, comes to the fore. Will I give, to myself, my own permission to remember? Will I choose that reciprocity?”
I’m no longer waiting for anyone out there to “catch up”. I’m only willing to notice the spaces within me where I am bracing against what is, hoping someone else will notice. What does it matter? If I step out of my own limiting constructs of what should be, I might notice that consciousness holds no right or wrong. It simply experiences. There is such tremendous freeing beauty in that recognition.
And so I am mindful of what it takes to sustain that level of thinking — that blissful, freeing, beautiful state of equanimity. Of acceptance of of all that already IS. There is nothing for me to do. There is nothing for me to brace against. There is nothing for me to fix, or save, or control, or manage. Not even my own life!
Instead, I am called to BE, unstoried. To integrate my history by intention (both individual and collective) and create, unstoried. Express from that newfound place of being, unstoried. Therefore mindfully design and create the world I want to be in as I go along, without the perceived limitations of the world I believe I am in.
In being that unstoried space, I am called to create, to express authentically and meaningfully…without attachment. I am called to paint, and write and enjoy the essence of fall. I am called to introspect and notice the stories that come up, notice the energetic hold they have in my body. I am called to invite my Self into myself so that I know, without a shadow of a doubt, what I AM.
I AM Creator of my own Life. There isn’t anything inside of me that belongs to anyone but me. There isn’t anything outside of me that also does not live inside of me first. WE are the Creators of our world. The world “out there” is a mere reflection of who we have chosen to become as a species. The world “out there” is a reflection of our internal states of being, and nothing more.
So, what does that tell you about your own internal landscape?
How curious are you to notice?
How willing are you to discover?
How daring are you to reclaim?
My truth about it all is that our history will never leave us. In reciting, learning the content, and fearing history, we end up replicating it. In our fear of not-that we end up creating that. Such are are the laws of the universe.
When we settle for smallness, we create a small world.
For myself? I have discovered a different way to live, a different paradigm. One that reminds me that I AM the thing itself. In that, I hold myself responsible at the highest order of thought available to me (and it is all available to me; for I AM the all itself!). In that, I will not be responsibilised because another says so; instead, I choose responsibility to my Self, for my Self, so that I evolve by intention, for it’s own sake.
Because, as I’ve come to discover, the infinite game is so much more fucking FUN!
To end this piece, I’d like to leave you to contemplate this export from The Kybalion, for a moment, if you will…
“THE ALL must be INFINITE, for there is nothing else to define, confine, bound, limit; or restrict THE ALL. It must be Infinite in Time, or ETERNAL,—it must have always continuously existed, for there is nothing else to have ever created it, and something can never evolve from nothing, and if it had ever “not been,” even for a moment, it would not “be” now,—it must continuously exist forever, for there is nothing to destroy it, and it can never “not-be,” even for a moment, because something can never become nothing. It must be Infinite in Space—it must be Everywhere, for there is no place outside of THE ALL—it cannot be otherwise than continuous in Space, without break, cessation, separation, or interruption, for there is nothing to break, separate, or interrupt its continuity, and nothing with which to “fill in the gaps.” It must be Infinite in Power, or Absolute, for there is nothing to limit, restrict, restrain, confine, disturb or condition it—it is subject to no other Power, for there is no other Power.”
― Three Initiates, The Kybalion