I am so aware of the immense external violations unfolding as a means to ensure control over, yet I knew that it was in showing up that I would get to reclaim a truth that I've been playing with: what's happening out there does not dictate the quality of my life. There is the collective reality shaped by collective consciousness, then there is my individual reality shaped by the quality of my mind.
There is a certain kind of pure joy, ever-flowing sweet nectar of sparkling feelings that I feel when I know a woman has just come out of her cocoon. It's a feeling of humbled ecstasy, of grounded majesty! It's like my whole body lights up and vibrates electricity outward in a beautiful endless spiral around my body that surrounds me and nourishes me because I know...this is consciousness awakened to herSelf! That moment of recognition of another's surrender to herSelf is precisely what Quantum TLC™ is.
There is a space within all of us that is still uncolonized. That is the space I choose to come back to, time and again. That is the space I am called to make decision from, now and foerever. That is the place of deep inner knowing. That is the place of of deep integrity. That is the uncompromised space that is forever congruent.
The last year or so has felt incredibly hard for me because of the speed, density and immensity of the destruction I see unfolding in the societal, cultural and physical realms ... which, of course, stem from the great disconnect from the divine (our own selves / the consciousness that we all are). I say "of… Continue reading Getting Terrifyingly Real with OurSelves: Be who you are NOW
To stay in the story of what "should" have been would mean that I would have to deprive myself of my own life lessons, thus my own evolution. To stay in the story of what "should" have been would mean to stay in the habit and deny myself the truth of what is. To stay in the story of what "should" have been would mean to sacrifice what is for an idealized, imagined version that isn't. In essence, it would mean I betray the truth that lives inside of me in favour of the story; it would mean pretending, glossing over, shutting down. It would mean self-betrayal. And I don't live like that anymore.
As a woman connected to my sense of Self, knowing the infinite power of what I AM, my creations are deeply intimate. They are created and birthed out of love and thus they are are deeply meaningful and personal. They are connected to the Source that I AM, and they are fully my personal responsibility. To me, that responsibility over my creations is sacred. I only create from my Soul, and those creations are intended to spark the sacred.
I've started to really question the language of recovery and reconciliation as an artificial trope being used by the dominant culture to reinforce itself.
Today, I stand in such sweet relief knowing, I can be with my fire, fully engulfed by it, fully immersed in it, and it is mine. It is MINE! And I am safe in it's transformational presence. Not only am I no longer afraid of my own fire (power), I rejoice in it, no matter how it presents... and usually it's pretty intense!
The creation of intimate relationships requires revelation of Self through deep vulnerability. Being vulnerable is a conscious choice. And we cannot be more intimate with another than we are willing to be with ourselves.
Transformation only occurs the moment I reclaim the truth of my experience, let go of the story/judgment/intellect, and choose wisely from the place of my emerging identity: who am I capable of becoming? And then, when I least expect it, the family systems strategies creep up.