As I have recently discovered, life expressing is never about the content or the strategy: it is about the intention that that we each hold and express from. That individual expression, that individual thread woven, contributes to the new design in the weave of the new tapestry of our collective, shared experience. Each thread is a new invitation to evolve by intention.
Until now, I have tolerated the blatant contradictions and have always believed that there is a lesser evil. I no longer believe that. Because no matter the perceived lesser evil, today, they are all inciting division and violence in ways that feel invasive to my core. So, I am done pretending band-aid solutions to our predicaments are enough; casting a vote for a broken system is not empowering and it is not enough.
How did 15 days to flatten the curve turn into mandated forced injections yearly for anyone who wants to be part of "us"? History necessarily repeats itself and intensifies because we are unwilling to face it.
This last year and half has been a tremendous provocation to my own evolution. In looking “out there” to find “the truth”, I discovered that there is none. Every “side” is filled with half-truths, untruths and often, blatant lies.What I discovered in the process is that the only truth that mattered to me, was my own. It is the truth that is stored in the tissue of my body and the quantum spaces in-between matter. It is the truth that cannot lie, and it has no other ulterior motive to communicate with me other than to let me know the Truth that resides in my being.
All of our attention has been intentionally diverted, devastated and overwhelmed by the C-word and all the words associated with it: science, data, evidence, gene-therapy. Here's what that means to me.
This is the context that has allowed me to wholeheartedly and unquestionably trust living from an internally referenced point. There is nothing 'out there' that can overcome the truth of my own experience delivered to me through the impulses that move through my body.
To be where I am, I've gifted myself with the permission to allow myself to see through different perceptual filters. The patriarchal narrative never worked for me; and yet I bought into it and felt stuck in my inability to "figure it out". Something was wrong with me. So I tried to escape "me". Now I know so much better! The process of continuing to clear the muck is essential, because tapping into the messages of the Signal from Self through the body has been critical to my healing, finding balance, self-evolution.
One foot on the gas pedal, the other on the brake.
Today, I live from a space of returning to mySelf, to my consciousness, to mindfulness…to light. In this way, I embody WHAT I AM –a divine being of light.
"There is no use in going back to yesterday, I was a different person then." - Alice in Wonderland